suma-ya-c's Logboek, 20 jun 22

I wonder when I’ll get my green line back. Psychologically I feel much better below 54. Last night at 10pm I was craving a slice of chocolate fudge cake and ice cream. It was all I could think of. So I lay in bed mulling over self love vs self discipline. They are both acts of love. However, the word discipline sets off a defiant streak in my brain that usually leads to overstuffing. What’s in a word I have always said. Clearly a lot more than meets the eyes or the brain. I won’t always have this mental clarity and I won’t always be this strong, but yesterday I was.

I’ve always felt a lot of the modern constructs are selfish and self indulgent. But not self love…if you don’t love yourself, there is no room to love others or any real happiness. SveltePW and I are reading a page a day from a book that she shared, a lot of reflection will ensue on how to translate some of it into daily living.

I was supposed to be down south over the next few days for a much needed catch up with friends. But the strikes have put that on hold. It’s a beautiful morning here and the plan is to go for a walk once I’ve caught up with a couple of hours of work.

Have a glorious day 🌞
53,1 kg Tot nu toe verloren: 10,3 kg.    Nog te gaan: 3,1 kg.    Dieet gevolgd: Redelijk Goed.

Bekijk Dieet Kalender, 20 juni 2022:
2232 kcal Vet: 91,30g | Eiwit: 93,70g | Kolhy: 247,35g.   Ontbijt: Semi-Skimmed Milk, Sugar. Lunch: Hellmann's Mayonnaise, Basmati Rice (Cooked), Baked or Grilled Fish. Diner: Sainsbury's Mixed Vegetables. Snacks/Andere: Mackie's Honeycomb Luxury Dairy Ice Cream, Marks & Spencer Chocolate Fudge Cake. meer...
70 kcal Activiteit: Stretching (Yoga) - 30 minuten, Apple Health - 23 uren en 30 minuten. meer...
Gewichtsafname van 2,1 kg per week

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Your line looks green to me, Suma! 
20 jun 22 door lid: JanusWoman
Hey what is the book? I read a page a day from the Daily Stoic and there is a lot to be reminded of about freedom of choice. I value it as a little daily meditation 
20 jun 22 door lid: JanusWoman
If "discipline" sounds too punishing, you could maybe talk to yourself in more positive caring terms like nourishing, patience and consistency?  
20 jun 22 door lid: Bearwood
Discipline & Self love can work in harmony, it’s not one or the other! Unfortunately, we all need discipline in our lives, and I think it’s just the way we look at it, I enjoy discipline, it’s what keeps me on track, but I can see why being disciplined might feel too restrictive. ❤️ 
20 jun 22 door lid: Jamie_D
Hi Janus, I just saw that. Now the struggle to stay there😂💚. The book is called Who will cry when you die by Robin Sharma. I’m doing a page a day, it’s all thanks to PW. I’ve not heard of the book you mentioned, I’ll look it up. It is lovely to see you xx 
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
Absolutely Bearwood…I never realised how my mind responds negatively to some language. I hope you get access to the rest of the features on FS…I find it helpful to give me an overall idea. 
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
Jamie! It’s lovely to see you. Do you have a date yet? You know I hate discipline or anything rigid, which can be limiting when focusing on things like weight! I refused to wear a suit to my job interviews…it’s just not me. Everyone else did😂 and I still got the job. I’m becoming more stubborn with age 👵 
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
I think we all get more stubborn with age 🤣 A date for what? 🤣 pleae don’t tell me you know something I don’t 🤣🤣 
20 jun 22 door lid: Jamie_D
I thought you had one more hospital date😂. I see several other dates in you future too 🔮  
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
I went for a ERCP last Wednesday, for the professor to remove my pig tail stent, I woke up 2 hours later, (another complicated ERCP for him) he spent the best part of the 2 hours, cleaning the remaining stones and grit, and I guess my bile duct wouldn’t stay open on its own, as I have a new pig tail stent in, then he sent me for a MRI on Friday, again my guess is to see if there is anything thing else in there! And I’ll have to go back for my fifth ERCP within the next weeks, I think 5 ERCPs must be some kind of record, I’m so proud of this achievement 🤣🤣 So, I’m thinking if my bike duct doesn’t stay open this next time, maybe he’ll permanently Stent me 🤷🏻‍♂️ 
20 jun 22 door lid: Jamie_D
Oh man! You’re having a time of it. I do feel a little sorry for your surgeon too😂 
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
I also feel sorry for him 🤣 but there is something quite reassuring when I arrive at the endoscopy unit, that all know me by name now 👍🏻 
20 jun 22 door lid: Jamie_D
You should probably get a part time job there at this rate. 
20 jun 22 door lid: suma-ya-c
That’s a good plan, I’ll look into it 🤣 
20 jun 22 door lid: Jamie_D
Thanks, Suma, I will look your book up too! X 
21 jun 22 door lid: JanusWoman

     
 

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